Almost six months have passed since I had to leave life as I know it to prioritize more essential matters, mainly my health, family and faith.
During my 37th birthday last October 2017 at Padre Pio Church, I was filled with a deep longing to enkindle my luke-warm relationship with God. At that time, I would describe myself as a disengaged Catholic at best, attending Sunday mass, giving alms, more as a sense of duty than out of love and reverence for God, and I felt, well, empty and lost. Maybe as a result of that lost fire, I started feeling less enthusiastic about life in general and soon started noticing physical manifestations of the dullness I was feeling—in my skin, my hair, my lost appetite and foggy mind, and soon, I became irritable, impatient and perpetually angry and frustrated that I couldn’t snap out of that state of merely existing.